when i met you i was scared to fall in love

butterflies grew claws and scratched up my insides

no coincidence that eyes dilate for both fear and longing

my heart learns you

molds only to your hands

your hands know me 

now only my throat

windpipe beckoned to bone

and bones to dust

our first date was on backs looking up at stars

that familiar shimmer reminds me that you placed those flickers in the air

then you created space to keep the stars from ever seeing the sun

now space has filled my veins

and the moon lies behind my tongue

my breaths become reflections

my blood seeps into puddles beneath my feet

and i remember that these stars are not yours

i’ve thought my feelings into fog

filled my lungs with smog

there is no turning back from this place i have escaped into

who i have become loves who i am more than she ever did